WELL WELL WHAT THA HELL

I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN FOOOOREVER.


updatttte, I work full-time.

my birthday is in six fuckin' days, hey 18 :)

tired, tired, tired.

sleep, sleep, sleep.

cute boyyyyy lives too far away!!

bubble baths and BERKY!






<3 if you love me, let me know.

UPDATE

- I wasted a month talking to you. to be left when you said you wouldn't.
- honesty with my mother
- SNOW
- SNOW
- SNOW
- I never have high school again.
- sleep till 4
- eat dinner
- nap
- ????????


Life is boring right now.

Up, up, and away

I wake up miserable some days. This has been the hardest month of my life. Every one's gone. I'm so angry.


I could leave my phone at home for hours, come home, and not have a single text, call, anything.




I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS MINDSET. THAT'S ALL THIS IS; A MINDSET.
I'm feeling this way because I let myself. I'm typically a happy person. I'm being dragged down; down to the bottom of the darkest, loneliest place I've ever been.


My heart hurts. Not just because of a person. But many, many other things. Plus realizing he's not changing his mind.


I wish I could just forget everyone. Please let me forget all I know.









I could take one thousand showers and never be clean.

whatever

I'm distracted. Always.


I thought I found someone real. blahhhh. maybe I did. I don't know. I don't know what to think anymore.

All I know is I'm tired of being heartbroken. so tired of it. One person can only take so much.







I want someone who doesn't want me.

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/leedlejulie

I hate repeating myself

it tells me you aren't paying attention.

Drowning in my sleep

I'm drowning in my sleep.


Yes, I have been listening to Underoath. I missed them. So why not give them a listen?


My throat hurts for some reason. I really hope I'm not getting sick.
I have my eye set on someone at the moment. I'm crushin'! I can't really say if the feeling is reciprocated. But I surely hope so. I want to move on to more mature stages of relationships and such. (Not to imply that my relationships weren't mature previously.) Before, it was like it wasn't as good of a relationship as I desired. Anyone that knows me, knows that I am a hopeless romantic and I would love to love someone. Ha, :) So I'm going to work to have a better relationship. I want to be taken seriously, and I want it to last a while.


Next week is my last real week of school. Then I have exams. I'm ready to begin my life without high school. High school kids and I don't really get along. I get along better with the teachers than I do the students. I think that's kind of sad. And may I add that I get along with the teachers, yes. But I don't get along with them in the Sarah Beth Testerman kind of getting along. Figgadeal? Haha.


So I hope you are having a good day. Be safe this weekend. Stay baby-free, as Summer would say.