December

I'm sorry that I've been quiet. I haven't had much to say.

I miss having a job. I hate not having money. :/



The Thanksgiving break was pretty nice. Sleeping in is one of my favorite things in the whole world. It was nice that my family could get together for at least a little while.


I need to stop sleeping so much. I feel so tired all of the time and it seems like I am sleeping my life away. I need a hobby! I may start latch-hook again. Sounds like a plan.



I need to work on my graduation project! D:

Things are changing

I have realized that my life is changing. I know that when I graduate, I probably won't see my best friend much; I won't hear from my friends that want to know what the exam is going to be on; I'll make new friends. The ones that want to stay in my life will stay without question, without being forced, and one thousand percent just because they love my company just as much as I love theirs.


I wish things could be how they used to be. But wishing isn't going to take things back to two years ago, when I was on top of the world. I don't think I could live without being at least a little hopeful. I'm still breathing, so I have hope.


I'm weird. I'm coming to terms with that. There are days when I need to just sit in my room and think. I'm not always up for carrying a conversation. I need time to be bored and think about what's going on around me. If I don't do that, then I'll just live some fiction life.
I need to be knocked down to reality every now and then. I hope you don't mind.


I'm thankful for Britany. She shows me every day how important I am to her. Even if it is only a text that says, "I love you. You're my best friend. Goodnight." It means the world to me, just wanted you to know.


-If you really love me, then make that clear to me.-

Nothing to say

I'm tired.
I'm cold.
I'm thankful for everything I have that I didn't have to work for.







I don't know what I want.

Why are you so ungrateful?

You have everything you ever asked for. You get every single thing you want. You have way more than I do, and you STILL mosey your way into complaining about what you have. You don't have to work for anything you have. People give it to you and you're still a selfish, ungrateful, whiney brat. It's time for you to grow up just a tad. People are going to get tired of trying to please you. Why do you expect everyone to please you anyways?

Try not to paper over your feelings today, though you are likely tempted to do just that. It's a good day to let your emotions run rampant, actually, and you should find that they clear away a bit more easily.


I'm thankful for the sun.

Today and Tomorrow

It's Thursday. It's finally getting closer to the weekend again.


I wish this rain would pass. It makes me want to stay in bed all day and just be warm, cozy, and lazy. That isn't what I want to do though! I want to be outside to feel the wind and the sun.


I like Skylar's idea of finding something you're thankful for each day. Today, I am thankful for... is this really that hard to think about? Well, I'll have to think about it and come back to it at the end of this.

Extreme Home Makeover is going to be in this town. I think that is really cool. They're going to come to our school or something like that tomorrow. Haaaay Ty!

My hair is a complete mess today. I'm trying to not straighten it as much. I want it to grow out really really long. Like to my hips (maybe not that long, but you get it).


I would like coffee right now to warm my cold little hands. One sugar, a little half and half, thank you.


I am thankful for the warm clothes I have on today.

Patience

is a virtue.
If I weren't patient, I would be no where.






This is true: The best matches for Taurus for sure are Capricorn and Virgo, but Pisces, Cancer, Aries, Gemini, and another Taurus may work for some, too--Depending on the individuals. The polar opposite for Taurus is Scorpio. This match can work, but it's likely to be a stormy one.








I'm cold, as always. How are you today?

I'll never fucking live like you.

So I'm kind of confused right now about what the scene is really about anymore. I grew up at the Soundvent. That's where I met some of my greatest friends. They became my family. No one disrespects my family.

These kids look at me like I'm stupid because I'm at a show. Just because I don't live and breathe shitty music, I'm the idiot. I've been here longer than you have even been into this shit. Just because you study the lyrics to every band you consider OMG SO GOOD, doesn't make me think you're cool. These kids think it's about the fashion and what you look like and who you hang out with, etc etc. IT'S NOT ABOUT THAT. The whole reason we get together for shows is because that's something we have common. We are supposed to share a love for this music. The way we are may be frowned upon in society. Which is why we do what we do. So please tell me why I get mean mugged every time I walk into a show. Is it because I'm not wearing an Emmure shirt, or whatever you consider 'hardcore?' I don't have to prove myself to anyone. Learn your shit.

I'm way too grown to be dealing with some 15 going on 16 year old drama. Talk shit all you want. I don't feel threatened. You should though. I go way back, ladies. So I can understand why you feel the need to crack the whip.

I'm not trying to be tough. I think people need to know how it is though.

I don't care what you wear, who you hang out with, what you do... Treat me with respect and I'll treat you with respect. You don't have to give me the nastiest look you can just because you're somewhat unsure of yourself. I'm not going to think about it again. I have slammed the book closed on that shit.

On another note: I know I need to let go. It's been right in front of me the whole time with bright flashing lights and a sign that says, "Julie, you didn't deserve that." I'm taking what pride I have left and running. I have officially closed the book, case closed, it's over. I hope you find what you're looking for. I know it wasn't me. And I'm fine with that. Once I have left, you can expect that I won't be back again.

I like the way things are right now.

THIS IS ME:

The Bull is nothing if not committed and will make a wonderful partner for the right person. A slow and steady courtship is most pleasing to this sign, and Taurus will stay in the game until they get what they want. That kind of perseverance is sexy indeed, and many will be won over by this quality alone. An unfaithful partner is the kiss of death where the Bull is concerned, so cheaters need not apply. Taurus enjoys the one-on-one of a close relationship and the affection and intimacy this provides. The Bull is also strong enough to be the power in a relationship, so a lover is well-served to practice the art of conciliation whenever necessary.

What can I say; I'm bossy. ;)

My friends are my family; my family, my treasure.

Someone close needs to hear how you're doing, and you've got to be brutally honest with them. It's not a question of feelings at this point--everyone needs to be on the same page, like it or not!

I am seeing that the people I surround myself with really do care about me. I'm so glad that I've weeded out the bad and untrue. I can count my close friends on one hand and I'm totally okay with that. Not to imply that I'm not open to new friendships; I am by all means! But the people I have right now are the comfort level I've been seeking... And they have definitely proved to be the best of the best.

This weekend is supposed to be very sunny and nice. I'm excited about that. There's nothing better than a beautiful day and amazing people to spend it with.

I think this weekend will be fun. No matter what Britany and I get into, I know it will be hilarious. I plan to make plenty more music videos to songs like "Speeding Cars," and "Hide and Seek." Hahaa, dramatic music videos indeed!

Well anyway, how are you?

I am Molly Hill.

You should avoid the impulse to make serious plans today - they may go awry thanks to a lack of information. Now is a good time for you to talk to people and do research so it can all gel later.

It's Lauren's birthday today. She is completely precious and is probably the sweetest person I know.

I want to see Redwoods. Someone should take me because I would like that a lot. I also want to go to the mountains before all the leaves are on the ground. Hopefully I'll be able to get to the Blue Ridge Parkway soon! I want to go to Old Salem, too. I love that place.

I have a huge test today on the Medieval ages. I really concentrated on making flash cards last night. I hope all the writing I did paid off. My hand was very near falling off.


So I'm trying to think if I have any important things coming up. Oh yeah, my entire senior project is due on November 20. Seriously, I don't even have my mentor. I don't have anything for my scrapbook. I'm stressing about this deadline, big time. I'm afraid that I won't have it finished in time and that I won't be able to graduate early. You know, I would probably be finished with it if it weren't for the fact that this project is so unorganized. One teacher will tell me one thing and then another teacher will tell me something else. If you would like me to do this project, then at least pay attention to the details and make sure everything adds up. I don't appreciate being rushed. Thank you Davidson County. I hate you.




On another note: today seems like it's going to be pretty decent. I'm looking forward to going home and getting into some comfy clothes, curling up in a blanket, having hot chocolate, and hanging out with my dad. I don't want to do anything but that.

But I hope you are having a good day. ;)

Diva of Disgust

My horoscope today: This is not the best day for signing agreements or starting new arrangements - though that doesn't mean you need to flee. If you can delay for a short time, that ought to be all you need to do.

Hmm, makes me wonder what I will be confronted with today. Whatever it is, my plan is to just go with it. I'm not up for dealing with any sticky situations today.

I love my kindergarten class more and more everytime I see them. Everytime they see me, it's like, "JULIEEEEE!!!" and then they run to hug me and kiss me on the cheek. My little babies. They're learning so much and so fast. They know how to write their name's now without me holding their hands and guiding them through their letters. They are so smart! Mrs. Peninger says that I work really well with them. Since I love them so much, I'm thinking about maybe being a kindergarten teacher some day. Haha, imagine that.

So how about I'm still sick, cool right? Doctors suck. He didn't even diagnose me with anything. And what exactly do you get paid for?

Ewwwww, I'm sitting in first period and we have a quiz at 9:10. This class is ridiculously easy though. So it shouldn't be hard at all. I'm tired of school! I'm so ready to be out in January.


My hands are cold. I want someone to make me coffee and let me cuddle with them.
Yeah right. Even if that did happen, it wouldn't be the person I want it to be.


I find everyday that I actually enjoy being a Taurus. It's funny to read about my personality traits. Because it really is how I am.


But anyways, Brunson is probably going to come over here and start lurking me in a minute. I love him though. He says I'm a mouthy brat. But I don't mind it.