Up, up, and away

I wake up miserable some days. This has been the hardest month of my life. Every one's gone. I'm so angry.


I could leave my phone at home for hours, come home, and not have a single text, call, anything.




I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS MINDSET. THAT'S ALL THIS IS; A MINDSET.
I'm feeling this way because I let myself. I'm typically a happy person. I'm being dragged down; down to the bottom of the darkest, loneliest place I've ever been.


My heart hurts. Not just because of a person. But many, many other things. Plus realizing he's not changing his mind.


I wish I could just forget everyone. Please let me forget all I know.









I could take one thousand showers and never be clean.

whatever

I'm distracted. Always.


I thought I found someone real. blahhhh. maybe I did. I don't know. I don't know what to think anymore.

All I know is I'm tired of being heartbroken. so tired of it. One person can only take so much.







I want someone who doesn't want me.

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I hate repeating myself

it tells me you aren't paying attention.

Drowning in my sleep

I'm drowning in my sleep.


Yes, I have been listening to Underoath. I missed them. So why not give them a listen?


My throat hurts for some reason. I really hope I'm not getting sick.
I have my eye set on someone at the moment. I'm crushin'! I can't really say if the feeling is reciprocated. But I surely hope so. I want to move on to more mature stages of relationships and such. (Not to imply that my relationships weren't mature previously.) Before, it was like it wasn't as good of a relationship as I desired. Anyone that knows me, knows that I am a hopeless romantic and I would love to love someone. Ha, :) So I'm going to work to have a better relationship. I want to be taken seriously, and I want it to last a while.


Next week is my last real week of school. Then I have exams. I'm ready to begin my life without high school. High school kids and I don't really get along. I get along better with the teachers than I do the students. I think that's kind of sad. And may I add that I get along with the teachers, yes. But I don't get along with them in the Sarah Beth Testerman kind of getting along. Figgadeal? Haha.


So I hope you are having a good day. Be safe this weekend. Stay baby-free, as Summer would say.

TWENTY TEN

I love feeling like there is a new start to things.
This year is gonna be dedicated to having fun and turning another page in my life. FUCK anything that tries to be an obstacle.

My last day of high school, EVER, is January 22, 2010. That's so crazy to me. I plan to get a job, get my own car, and pay for most of my own shit. School is the only thing that could hold me back from getting a good job in the first place.

My birthday is April 28. I'll be 18 years old. I can't wait for that day, solely because I'll be able to get some sweet tats. :)


This year is gonna be awesome as fuck. I'm going to stay as positive about things as possible. I'm starting new with everything, and I love it.