I'll never fucking live like you.

So I'm kind of confused right now about what the scene is really about anymore. I grew up at the Soundvent. That's where I met some of my greatest friends. They became my family. No one disrespects my family.

These kids look at me like I'm stupid because I'm at a show. Just because I don't live and breathe shitty music, I'm the idiot. I've been here longer than you have even been into this shit. Just because you study the lyrics to every band you consider OMG SO GOOD, doesn't make me think you're cool. These kids think it's about the fashion and what you look like and who you hang out with, etc etc. IT'S NOT ABOUT THAT. The whole reason we get together for shows is because that's something we have common. We are supposed to share a love for this music. The way we are may be frowned upon in society. Which is why we do what we do. So please tell me why I get mean mugged every time I walk into a show. Is it because I'm not wearing an Emmure shirt, or whatever you consider 'hardcore?' I don't have to prove myself to anyone. Learn your shit.

I'm way too grown to be dealing with some 15 going on 16 year old drama. Talk shit all you want. I don't feel threatened. You should though. I go way back, ladies. So I can understand why you feel the need to crack the whip.

I'm not trying to be tough. I think people need to know how it is though.

I don't care what you wear, who you hang out with, what you do... Treat me with respect and I'll treat you with respect. You don't have to give me the nastiest look you can just because you're somewhat unsure of yourself. I'm not going to think about it again. I have slammed the book closed on that shit.

On another note: I know I need to let go. It's been right in front of me the whole time with bright flashing lights and a sign that says, "Julie, you didn't deserve that." I'm taking what pride I have left and running. I have officially closed the book, case closed, it's over. I hope you find what you're looking for. I know it wasn't me. And I'm fine with that. Once I have left, you can expect that I won't be back again.

I like the way things are right now.

THIS IS ME:

The Bull is nothing if not committed and will make a wonderful partner for the right person. A slow and steady courtship is most pleasing to this sign, and Taurus will stay in the game until they get what they want. That kind of perseverance is sexy indeed, and many will be won over by this quality alone. An unfaithful partner is the kiss of death where the Bull is concerned, so cheaters need not apply. Taurus enjoys the one-on-one of a close relationship and the affection and intimacy this provides. The Bull is also strong enough to be the power in a relationship, so a lover is well-served to practice the art of conciliation whenever necessary.

What can I say; I'm bossy. ;)